Oh God oh God oh God
f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck
I´m really nervous while I´m typing this because I´m still half confused and half freaking out! Just to try to calm down I set a “happy” playlist on youtube(which sucks btw) and started to juggle. I almost threw one of the balls through the roof…
Ok. So the big story is that I´ve finally been officialy accepted to the Peace Revolution Fellowship in December…… in ……. in Thailand.
And I´ve spoken to my parents about it. All the money I´ve saved up + my birthday money are going to be for buying my flight to Thailand…and….back? No way… NO WAY! It can be a stepping stone! I can use Thailand as a stepping stone to start moving around…to….to Australia for example?! Yeah that would be epic!
I´m still baffled. I need to relax…but I´m not going to read this through before publishing it. Whatever!
My parents are “ok” with the idea. My mother almost burst out crying. My father only thought about all the technical problems I have to start thinking about. My big brother just kept on playing on Fb. My mother wants to kill me for missing Christmas in Spain which is so very important here as a family thing. And then she tried to hold back her tears when I couldn´t answer her question:
“when would you be back…..?”
Oh God. Now I have a crazy month ahead of me full of preparations and saying bye to people. How many things do I have to prepare!? It´s nuts! Where do I start?! Oh f*ck.
I´m going back to juggling a while!